Have you ever been so broken that you forgot that you were brilliant? Well, I’ve been there! Having gone through a divorce after sixteen years of marriage, having to close the business (due to the pandemic), that I spent twelve years building, giving up my home and moving in with my mother, dealing with the financial burden that came with the divorce, and closing the business, and if that was not bad enough, having tested positive with the COVID-19 virus! YIKES! Not to mention, all of this came one behind the other and some simultaneously.
There were days I congratulated myself just for getting out of bed! But during this season, I learned so much about myself and life itself. I recognize that if I just keep getting up, there is still hope. So I became intentional about getting up. I recognized that through it all God was keeping me and He was providing for my needs. But most of all, I recognized the importance of being silent and spending time to know me and time to love me, and time to build me.
“He who does not understand your silence will probably not understand your words.” Elbert Hubbard.
That quote meant everything to me. I realized that over the years I have given my love so freely even before I see the loyalty of those I was loving. My life became very quiet and the crowd I once fed was gone.
I self-reflected and almost allowed myself to believe that I was a failure. I felt I failed at marriage and no one will ever want me now being divorced at 45 with 3 children. I felt I failed at business and finance and have no reason to teach in those areas. What can I say, my mind had a field day with me! BUT, I changed the script and started studying the bible more. The word of God reminded me that I was FEARFULLY and WONDERFULLY made. That I had greatness in me. That the same power that raised Jesus Christ from the dead lives in me. So, I believed those words, and it’s amazing when you change your mindset, you become unstoppable!
Suddenly I started seeing posts about Kamala Harris. I saw that she found love at 49 years old, got married at 50 years old, and now 56 years the Vice President of the great United States. Talk about hope! All the worry left me like a mouse fleeing from its prey. In addition, one day I came across an interview with Lisa Nichols and I listened to her talk about downsizing her life, working hard, saving all her money, being quiet, educating herself, and now she is one of the most sought after Transformational Coach. And as if that was not enough, I read the Memoir of Ellen Johnson Sirleaf. Ellen was divorced with 4 children; went to college after, got involved in politics, endured prison several times, and still became AFRICA’S FIRST WOMAN PRESIDENT.
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways. Isaiah 55: 8-9. Who can truly understand the ways of God? Sometimes He hides us to protect us, and to restore us. His love is constant and His blessings are assured. So despite where life had taken me, I am BRILLIANT. I am BEAUTIFUL. I am POWERFUL.
Have the Courage to Stand in your Brilliance, Beauty, and Power UNAPOLOGETICALLY –Lisa Nichols
